“Dearest, your little heart is wounded; think me not cruel because I obey the irresistible law of my strength and weakness; if your dear heart is wounded, my wild heart bleeds with yours. In the rapture of my enormous humiliation I live in your warm life, and you shall die—die, sweetly die—into mine. I cannot help it; as I draw near to you, you, in your turn, will draw near to others, and learn the rapture of that cruelty, which yet is love; so, for a while, seek to know no more of me and mine, but trust me with all your loving spirit.”

- Joseph Sheridan Le Fanu

Thursday, June 23, 2011

How do you measure a year?

It's a little stunning to think it has been just over a year. A year since I was sitting in my office in Boise, probably on Facebook, I don't remember now. Peacefully, possibly lazily, I was drinking my coffee when my husband exclaimed, "Oh, SWEET!"

I turned to see what he was so excited for and before I could open my mouth to ask he points at his computer screen, "The Cam is bringing back Masquerade."

I think I screamed with joy.

In the one year since that moment my life has changed so drastically, it's hardly recognizable for what it was. From new and intense friendships, to moving to a new city, to new goals and outlooks, everything is different. This game; this three year chronicle has created something in my life outside of it. It's made me something more. I was on a airplane from Seattle, coming home from visiting friends I made in the past year, when I realized I needed to tell my story. What I have created inside a game has had such a profound effect on my life; and effect I know others share and experience. I need to let people know what I have made and what it has done to me.

The spotlight is on gaming now. Video games, D&D, pervasive gaming, live action role play, even Iphone apps have become such a staple in our world culture. More people are gaming than ever before. The time is ripe for a shy girl from Idaho to step forward and tell everyone a story of a game and how it changed her life. How it made her better. I will be telling the story of the past year- and the coming two years. Three years of a game and a girl and what she became.

It's going to be a wild ride. Here we go.

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